My first exam while I'm studying - unthought-of for the most people knowing me as "a real girl", not that "nerd-girl" I'm finally asked to be, cause "It's so unusual!Look at the other +censored. girls [...]"

Haha! this is how life works, and not in any other way XD

Ya, maybe... but CAUSE OF my first exam this time, my mum told me only now that my darling died last night... well, ... Actually .. hm. should it be? have it to be?
I don't know...

And now... I lost one of my faithful cute compeers... -.- And I'm a lil bit angry... cause I couldn't be there for her last week... I'm soo.. disappointed...

Presently I have only 1 - WE are only 2 of 3 glorious... Friends. Simply friends, ya! But friendship is the most estimable you can have actually. And they 2 are and were definitely the best ever happened to me...
We were friends. Just friends.

Hm.. I have lost her.. and it makes me sick.. If I had known that I.. - well, some things humans are not able to know beforehand.. or?

hm.. presently I cannot speak!.. I.. can write only...

I'm really really mad at me! If I hadn't went away for such stupid studying!... well she wouldn't be alive either way.. But I could have been there! FOR HER in her last moment on earth.. I miss her so!!!...
But I hadn't be gone! That have had to be THE priority to me, not stupid stud. That should have been my duty!... I... this is .. I owe her soo much...
Thank you! I love you G!... I'm so sad..

You deserved so more in your life than I had awarded ... I'm so sorry for that.. -.-

I was so shocked two years before. a gorgeous man and a true friend died in a horrible 'car' accident..
And this year it is you...

My heart's shocked and my eyes want me not to see more terrible things for now...